Monday, January 17, 2011

"But the sweet smoke came with mirrors & it brought tears to my wide eyes"

After months and months of trying to get rid of that awful, gnawing pit in my stomach, it resurfaced today. I have lost the desire to eat and I'm so emotionally agitated I can't focus or sleep. My body is trembling, my heart is breaking and I can't control it. I hope this is temporary. I only hope it disappears as quickly as it returned. I can't allow this feeling to shatter yet another potentially good semester. 

I'm trying to stay positive. I'm trying even harder to not let this eat me alive. I don't know how to read into what happened today. I need to let it go... just forget it. There's no point in making something out of what may very well be nothing.

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