"Not until we are lost do we begin to understand ourselves." -- Henry David Thoreau
Today is my day off so I'm spending it by appreciating music and films that I may have missed by being overly melodramatic and pessimistic about life. I have a lot to be grateful for and with every loss there are many things to gain. Things will turn around, so today I'm choosing to be happy.
I absolutely love Fiona Apple and have been in love with her voice and sound since the 90's. Somehow I missed this Beatles cover and I actually think it's good. (And I hate song covers.) The Beatles and Fiona Apple. Beautiful.
Thursday, June 23, 2011
Wednesday, June 22, 2011
Friday, June 17, 2011
Homesick
I got back the 15th and I'm still exhausted (probably from the 16 mile hike I did the day before in addition to all the other hiking and walking around I did).
I learned a lot about myself and my life...both good and bad things. I'm not joking around when I say that I feel very fragile upon coming home from Yellowstone. I feel both rejuvenated and like my heart is bleeding twice as much as before. It's always hard to adjust to spending a week in a forest to going back to the city. I always come back saying, "Now what?" Its hard to bounce back to normality. I feel no reason to sit around and watch TV or really do anything else except go outside and walk around, but it's not the same. Everything is so...modern, complicated, and noisy. When you're surrounded by a forest for a week, life becomes much simpler and quieter. It's a weird adjustment. I can usually adapt to change pretty well, but I struggle with this kind of change. It's hard to come from a place that makes you feel so much peace only to go back somewhere that you're being slammed in every direction with stress, unhealthy distractions, pain, constant criticism, etc. It's exhausting emotionally.
I feel incredibly homesick for Yellowstone. The last day I had 2 hours to explore Yellowstone on my own before dark. It was an amazing personal experience. One that really impacted me deeply and will never leave me. It was incredible. I'll share some of the details later.
I'm going to write blogs that cover each day of my trip and possibly include some of the pictures I took. It's quite late now and I really need to get some sleep.
I learned a lot about myself and my life...both good and bad things. I'm not joking around when I say that I feel very fragile upon coming home from Yellowstone. I feel both rejuvenated and like my heart is bleeding twice as much as before. It's always hard to adjust to spending a week in a forest to going back to the city. I always come back saying, "Now what?" Its hard to bounce back to normality. I feel no reason to sit around and watch TV or really do anything else except go outside and walk around, but it's not the same. Everything is so...modern, complicated, and noisy. When you're surrounded by a forest for a week, life becomes much simpler and quieter. It's a weird adjustment. I can usually adapt to change pretty well, but I struggle with this kind of change. It's hard to come from a place that makes you feel so much peace only to go back somewhere that you're being slammed in every direction with stress, unhealthy distractions, pain, constant criticism, etc. It's exhausting emotionally.
I feel incredibly homesick for Yellowstone. The last day I had 2 hours to explore Yellowstone on my own before dark. It was an amazing personal experience. One that really impacted me deeply and will never leave me. It was incredible. I'll share some of the details later.
I'm going to write blogs that cover each day of my trip and possibly include some of the pictures I took. It's quite late now and I really need to get some sleep.
Wednesday, June 8, 2011
I'm Going Home
I leave early Thursday morning...
Despite the current fragility of my heart, deep inside I feel like everything is going to be okay. There are going to be major struggles ahead, but I'll be fine. It's time to really heal. I think this vacation will do wonders for my soul. I love you all and thank you for being my friends.
Despite the current fragility of my heart, deep inside I feel like everything is going to be okay. There are going to be major struggles ahead, but I'll be fine. It's time to really heal. I think this vacation will do wonders for my soul. I love you all and thank you for being my friends.
Sunday, June 5, 2011
Semiotic Love
"Just say goodbye.
I'll live and I'll die
Hooked on a star,
Enraptured by the sky,
In love with a satellite.
I'll stare forever and love whatever breaks my heart."
(from 'Semiotic Love' by Blaqk Audio)
I'll live and I'll die
Hooked on a star,
Enraptured by the sky,
In love with a satellite.
I'll stare forever and love whatever breaks my heart."
(from 'Semiotic Love' by Blaqk Audio)
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