What I Want

I want to... - Sleep under the stars - Run barefoot outside in a heavy snow storm wearing only a tank top and shorts - Jump in puddles - Climb trees - Climb mountains - Explore forests and oceans - Study art history and architecture - Study literature and languages - Eat healthier and exercise regularly - Do yoga and meditate regularly - Take a sketchbook with me everywhere - Hug trees - Touch the leaves on the trees and flower petals - Walk barefoot along the beach - Stare at the moon - Tell stories around a campire - Take photographs of everything I find beautiful - Stay up all night playing video games - Build a fort with chairs, pillows, and blankets and sleep in it - insist on reading children's books to a sick friend - Buy many many many more books - Fill entire notebooks with stream of consciousness writings - Go on regular roadtrips - Believe in hugging and kissing - Write anonymous letters to complete strangers - Have a movie marathon - Spend more time around horses simply to feel their velvety lips against my hand when I feed them - Share every thought in my head no matter how random or ridiculous it may be - Cry when I need to - Throw parties for the hell of it - Take more bubble baths - Celebrate my favorite author's birthdays - Have a picnic in a tree - Make collages - Buy a nerf gun - Take a floral design class - Buy a harmonica and annoy the hell out of everyone while attempting to play it - Learn to play the ukelele - Go to a toy store and play with everything - Go to an aquarium - Always wear bright colored socks - Start a nature journal - collect leaves, sketch plants, etc - Create my own recipe book - Cook more, eat less fast food - Practice calligraphy - Practice embroidery stitches - Start doing henna tattoos - Travel the world - Stop apologizing for everything - Be daring enough to allow someone to get close to me - drop every wall and risk the rejection and humiliation - Speak up when staying silent would cause more harm than good - be assertive and bitchy when necessary :) - Take someone to Yellowstone for their first time - Realize that making mistakes is normal and striving for perfection is completely unrealistic - Gain control over my anxiety, so that fear doesnt control everything in my life - Travel so far away by myself that Im no longer afraid of not coming back

Every single night's a fight with my brain...

I cannot think of another song that can describe my mind better than this one - the constant struggle between who you really are vs who you want to be, insomnia, the desire for more when there is seemingly very little hope, combatting what I call the "constant shit storm in my brain" (aka anxiety and depression), etc. Amazing song.

I haven't been able to listen to Fiona's most recent album all the way through because I've had some songs on repeat for days. I used to claim her second album, When the Pawn..., as the one album that resonated with me the most. I think this album may quickly take it's spot though. It's really good. I relate a little too much with it lyrically.

Oh, Fiona. You've stolen my heart with your music once again.

My Favorite Words

I love words. It comes from my love of literature and how words can evoke certain emotions. I'm going to compile a list of my favorite words - some of these words I find fun to say, some have significant meaning, some I love for the imagery that the words bring to mind, and some of them I overuse in daily conversation, etc. I'm sure I'm forgetting a lot of my favorites, but these are the ones that immediately spring to mind.

A

Abominable

Absolutely

Abyss

Aesthetic

Affinity

Alluring

Amaranth

Amethyst

Amygdala

Anatomically

Annihilation

Anthropomorphism

Aquiesce

Arsenic

Asphyxiate

Audacious

Autumn

B

Beloved

"Bloody Brilliant"

Breathe

C

Calamity

Cataclysmic

Cathartic/Catharsis

Caveat

Chartreuse

Cinders

Coercion

Conundrum

Convoluted

Crimson

Crystalline

D

Dastardly

Decrepit

Defenestration

Deliquescence

Demure

Deoxyribonucleic acid

Desolate

Dichotomy

Dilapidated

Disambiguation

Dissonance

Divinity

E

Eccentricity

Eclectic

Ecstasy

Effervescent

Elixir

Eloquence

Emerald

Empyrean

Enigma

Ennui

Ephemeral

Epiphany

Equilibrium

Esoteric

Espionage

Ethereal

Euphoria

Eviscerate

Evocative

Exquisite

F

Facade

Facetious

Fantastic

Fascinating (I usually use this sarcastically)

Feign

Filigree

G

Gallivanting

Grostesque

H

Hollow

I

Iconoclast

Idyllic

Imbue

Incandescent

Incognito

Indeed

Indelibly

Indigo

Indubitably

Inebriated

Ineffable

Ingenuity

Insidious

Intuition

Irenic

Ivory

Ivy

K

Kaleidoscope

L

Labyrinth

Livid

Loquacious

Lore

Lucid

Lullaby

Luminescent

M

Maelstrom

Magnificent

Maleficent

Malevolent

Manifestation

Masquerade

Mausoleum

Melancholia

Mellifluous

Mesmerize

Myriad

N

Nefarious

Nemesis

Nephalim

Nonchalant

Norepinephrine

Nosferatu (I know this is a name of a vampire, but I like it)

Nostalgia

O

Oblivion

Occipital

Ominous

P

Pandemonium

Parallelogram (I had a friend in high school who could not pronounce this word to save her life - the word makes me smile now) 

Paraphernalia

Pensive

Penumbra

Percolate

Phantom

Phenomenal

Pneumonoultramicroscopicsilicovolcanoconiosis (Too much fun to say!)

Plethora

Preternatural

Pristine

Q

Quasihemidemisemiquaver

R

Rambunctious

Rejuvenation

Resonate

Reverie

S

Sapphire

Sassy

Sequoia

Serenity

Shenanigan

Solemn

Soliloquy

Stifled

Supernal

Surreal

Sycophant

Symposium

Synchronicity

Synesthesia

T

Tempestuous

Tintinnabulation (comes from one of my favorite poems by Edgar Allan Poe, "The Bells")

Transcendant

Tumultuous

U

Ubiquitous

Ukelele

Undulate

Unique

V

Vacant

Verbose

Vicissitude

Visceral

Viscosity

Vivacious

W

Whisper

Willow

Winter

Your turn. What are your favorite words?