Homesick

I got back the 15th and I'm still exhausted (probably from the 16 mile hike I did the day before in addition to all the other hiking and walking around I did).

I learned a lot about myself and my life...both good and bad things. I'm not joking around when I say that I feel very fragile upon coming home from Yellowstone. I feel both rejuvenated and like my heart is bleeding twice as much as before. It's always hard to adjust to spending a week in a forest to going back to the city. I always come back saying, "Now what?" Its hard to bounce back to normality. I feel no reason to sit around and watch TV or really do anything else except go outside and walk around, but it's not the same. Everything is so...modern, complicated, and noisy. When you're surrounded by a forest for a week, life becomes much simpler and quieter. It's a weird adjustment. I can usually adapt to change pretty well, but I struggle with this kind of change. It's hard to come from a place that makes you feel so much peace only to go back somewhere that you're being slammed in every direction with stress, unhealthy distractions, pain, constant criticism, etc. It's exhausting emotionally.

I feel incredibly homesick for Yellowstone. The last day I had 2 hours to explore Yellowstone on my own before dark. It was an amazing personal experience. One that really impacted me deeply and will never leave me. It was incredible. I'll share some of the details later.

I'm going to write blogs that cover each day of my trip and possibly include some of the pictures I took. It's quite late now and I really need to get some sleep.